I need a hobby

I am at a strange place in my life.  I am content, but not really happy.  I love my family, my life and my kids.  I am grateful beyond words at the blessings that are mine, but I feel I am missing something.  I need a hobby.  I need something that is totally mine and not an offshoot of my family.  I want to find something that excites me and fills me with joy, but I am not sure what that is going to look like. 

I know that it can't be something overly expensive because I have a hard time justifying spending money on myself and would use that as an excuse not to continue or explore an idea.  I have sedentary loves already; reading and writing, so I want something that isn't exactly rigorous, but requires movement and interaction with the world. 

I am thinking about photography.  Perhaps taking a class and learning more about composition and different styles.  Digital camera's have made it less expensive and I already own a great camera.  I also haven't explored all of it's options and possibilities. 

Another thought is art....I would love to be artistic in a way that is creative and also creates something, but I am not not artistic in the traditional sense.  I am drawn to art, but I don't know that I would actually like trying to create it.  I don't want to just be busy, but filled with joy at the idea of it.

I keep trying to think of the times in my life or the places where I am the happiest.  I am happy coaching the kids, but that isn't a hobby, and is still a reflection of my family and not me.  I like education and curiosity, but even that feels more like a family extension.  Other than the things I love with my family, I am most joyous and peaceful on the water.  I love being out on the boat, but I can't rely on that since we don't own a boat anymore, and I don't want to use others.  Although I could learn how to sail.   But I am guessing that isn't inexpensive.  We could get a boat or jet ski but that is only an option for the summer.

I like being outside, but I am not athletic, so I don't want to join team sports or anything competitive.   I like instant gratification, like almost everyone and I am not detailed oriented.  I thought about gardening, but that produces results by the season, and easily could become a chore instead of a joy. 

I have discovered that I like the knitting I am doing with hoops, but I couldn't figure out how to knit by reading about it, so perhaps I should take a class.  That meets most of my criteria but seems more like busy work than a hobby.  Does anyone actually get excited to get out of bed in the morning by knitting?   I doubt it.

So that is where I am right now.  I want to find something that is mine and is fun, and I am not sure where this journey will lead.  But I am curious to find out.

Merry Christmas, Happy New Year, and of course GroundHogs Day!

I have not kept up with our progress and so much has happened.  I could go back and write about our Cruise, Christmas, and the New Year, but that would bore even me. 
Homeschooling is still going wonderful although we were sidelined by a nasty case of the flu.  It took almost 3 weeks out of our schedule as we took turns feeling like death warmed over.  It was hard getting back into the swing of things and All boy was a nightmare getting back into routine.

But life is back to normal.  As normal as it gets on Misfit Island.